Ami Lynn, I love you beyond what words can describe.

I love our memories, how I waited, you waited for me. I love our deepest talks, and the way your love rocked... My whole world, I never expected it...

I loved the way you spoke, and laughed. I love that smirk, when you would say.... Thanksss babeh...

I loved your goals and dreams and how you fit me in those things. I loved the selflessness, the closeness, the faithfulness. I loved the certainty, that I loved you and you loved me. I loved when you would cook, and think of me, even when I couldn't give it back all the time you alway thought of me.

I hate the memory of the look in your eyes. When I I hurt you, that moment you realized... I hate me so bad...

I hate myself... I hate what I've done. I hate I took you for granted when you where the one, to try so hard, to stay with me... And I ****** up so senselessly... I hate going to sleep... Then having those dreams, panic attack, I wake up with you not next to me... I hate coming home, to sit in our place, stare at the walls, can't eat, pale face... I know you you don't care, I will reap what I've sewn.. I look every few minutes, checking my phone.. I hate my job, my car, my food, being alive... Right now.... I just hate everything.. Just getting by... Done...

Take me back to that day... Turn back time so I can fix this... Or let me take your pain for myself...
mmn6134 mmn6134
22-25, F
May 29, 2014