I Should Have Kissed Him

In 1985, I visited my fiancee when he was living in another state, and we had dated, but circumstances drew us apart. He knew I was coming to visit, but thought my focus was his roommate; I supposed it had to feel that way, as he had a girlfriend, and so wanted to see him. So, after a 15-hour car ride, we arrived at their house very late. He was curled up on the sofa, fast asleep. I watched him resting there, and I adored him. I ran my fingers through his hair, waking him gently. "I'm here" I said. What I wanted to do was to lean over and kiss him. I wanted to hold him in my arms and hold his heart against mine. It was inappropriate and impossible in the mind of an 18 year of girl. 25 years later, it is in my heart that it was supposed to have  happened. We had been meant to be all along, and the kiss may have set our lives in motion. We are together now, with the 25 year lapse. I regret all of the years that we missed in between. If I had just kissed him, he'd have known my true intention, and we'd be celebrating 25 years of marriage, instead of being just engaged at this time. Listen to your heart; it never lies.

lemleythelioness lemleythelioness
41-45, F
1 Response Apr 10, 2010

Thats very sweet. Sad you missed that time but so beautiful your making up for it : ) , Ralph n Biloxi