Nighttime...

Night time... That's when its the worst. Usually, its when I'm depressed, and can't get my brain to shut off. All those 'bad' thoughts that I've learned to simply ignore, are still there, like background noise, keeping me up because I've gotta stay focused on shutting them up.

iFortiTude iFortiTude
31-35
3 Responses Aug 16, 2008

That happens to me alot especially after a bad or stressful day at work. I just can't seem to stop thinking about the negative and embarrassing things that have been brought to my attention. The only way I can totally turn it off is by falling asleep in front of the tv. Usually I will play a Star Wars movie or just have the tv on and the mindlessness of the program will help me to think of other things.

I definitely feel you on this one. Sometimes, when I can't sleep at night, I lay in my bed as my thoughts go round and round like a tornado. I begin to believe I can solve all of the world's problems. I think of new story ideas I want to write about. I think of all of the negative things that have happened to me. It makes me nuts. And when I go through those cycles, it's not just one night I go without sleep. I'll stay up for three or four nights, each night the same matinee plays in my head, until finally I am so exhausted I fall asleep during the day...for about two hours if I'm lucky. Then the entire cycle begins again. I am on medication to make me sleep...have tried to sleep without it and was a no-go. I despise these kinds of nights. <br />
Good wishes to you...

I know the feeling...