Obligated

My brother died December 28th. He had an enlarged heart, which we now know runs in the family. I'm supposed to get regular checkups now and, honestly, why should I live when he didn't? I felt like living was an obligation before, he actually enjoyed life, 21 years old, just bought a house. I don't want to kill myself or anything, but it seems like I'm not living and going to school for myself, but because everyone expects me to. I just don't know.
An Ep User An EP User
Jan 19, 2013