Seeing the Long Passed On

When I was a young girl I lived in this house with my parents. We would have spots on the wall that looked like blood and we'd scrub them off only to have them reappear. In the corner their was a spot that looked like something was dripping down, we'de scrub it off for it to come back again. We'd paint over these spots over and over agian only for them to come back. Sitting and watching TV books and magazines would go flying off of our coffee table, even with no windows open. We'de stand in the kitchen and the door to the basement would slam shut or lights would turn on and off. My mum said she used to come down stairs and I'd be talking to someone and tell her he's sitting right in front of me.

I really honestly hate this.

My grandmother passed away four years ago and I have a young son, he's one. I hear her singing through the monitor, or the monitor would go all staticy. Sometimes I'd wake up in the middle of the night and she'd be beside me holding my hand. I loved her dearly and truly I do miss her. But it's so hard trying to get over loosing her when she keeps staying. It seems everytime something bad happens she shows herself to me but when she's in my sons room she'll disappear when I walk in. Not to long ago I recently had a bad break up with my ex. The entire time it was happening she stood behind me holding my shoulder as if trying to protect me. I went to go and see her at her grave a few days ago and it was the hardest thing. I was standing there with my son and I happened to notice he was reaching his arms out as if trying to go to someone. I looked over and she was standing there just smiling at me. When she left my son started screaming. I hate this and I hate seeing this.

I love reading in here how many other people are alike 

babygirl1990 babygirl1990
1 Response Feb 14, 2009

maybe you should try telling her that your fine and that she should move on. maybe she dosent know she's gone yet. i hpe everything gets better for you. (: