I Worry....

This group is so true for me,I wish i had more of a life,more of an existence I admit I am not the most socialable of people although I do try hard,i work as a carer and I get every other weekend off,sometimes I look forward to going to work just to have someone to talk to,on the days im not in work im either online,in bed,reading out for a jog or just sitting at home,im 22 and ive only had a handful of nights out and ive been clubbing once,im scared im going to wake up one day and it will be to late i dont want to be old before my time i have a partner who is 25 years older than me all he seems to want to do is go out on his motorbike or visit his mother which i dont always want to do,i dont know many people where i live and when i do meet people i dont seem to fit in im not close to my family so i cant visit them.im not ranting about this and neither do i want any pity i dont know what to do anymore,i get up work come home,sit around and go back to work and if i try to tell my partner how i feel he gets annoyed  at me.I want my life back.What can i do?
XxBlackCat100xX XxBlackCat100xX
22-25, F
May 18, 2012