Over and Over

for as long as i can remember, i've always had really great, close friends. these are/were the type of friends that would do anything for you. they're more like siblings then anything else. i could count on them. i wanted to be around them every moment of my life. but at some point, it just stops. i become completely disgusted with them. i shut them out. i start fights and place all the blame on them. i hurt them so terribly, but i cant stop. and trust me. these are all truly great people. i wish i could tell them i'm sorry. i wish i could change the way i am, and the way i've treated them, but i cant seem to figure out how. i'm tired of this game.
gypsysoul gypsysoul
22-25, F
1 Response Jul 1, 2007

I've had this too quite a few times. Looking back I think the cause was that we grew apart. You grow older, get different interests, goals in life. I didn't always realise this and didnt know how to handle parting ways so I guess that is why I just start shutting those friendships out, acting rude, stupid.. It's just not nice to have to let go of something that used to be so much fun.. but it's inevitable. All things come to an end, those that are good as well as those that are bad.