Mental Illness Shatters Lifes

I have a lot of regret about how things went in my childrens lifes.  i was a young mother who had bipolar.  It took a long time to get diagnoised.  My kids suffered alot when they were young.  Rages sometimes, me sleeping all day when I was depressed.  A lot of other craziness as well.  I left them when they were young to live in a residential home for awhile.  I would come in and out of thier life to live for short periods.  To me, it was an effort on my part to try and be there for them.  But it never worked out as I'd plan.

 

I stayed in close contact with them and always let them know I loved them. I tried to make all the important events.  I wrote often and called often.  I visited, but even though the visits were short, they were often disruptive.  I did the best I could at the time.  But I doubt thats what they will remember.  they are all grown now, with families of thier own.  Maybe through time they will forgive me.

 

 

NewShoes NewShoes
46-50, F
1 Response Jul 25, 2007

It sounds like you did your best with what you were given. I hope your children recognize that as well.