I Notice Little Things About You To Show That I Love You Not To Hurt You.

I wish I had more friends... Some that would actually call me and invite me to hang out instead of me awkwardly trying to include myself into their group. I have one "best" friend who I am starting to loose and desperately trying to keep the friendship alive. It seems like when I try to hang out with him he will ignore me or my texts. I don't know why I can't keep my mouth shut around him but I try so hard to start a conversation with him just so I know he doesn't hate me, but it feels like he does. I always accidentally make little comments on things that he does but then he takes offence to it, all I try to do is let him know that I notice things about him that I love and think are funny. But then he tells me that I'm always trying to put him down. I don't know why I can't just shut up around him. I am starting to think that maybe I should just sneak away from his life, he wouldn't notice.. No, the Drugs and alcohol would keep him from noticing... I wish he would never have changed this year and I miss when he used to say that he loved me. Now when I ask for something as simple as a hug he blows me off and walks away.. I need more close friends... Some who will want me to be around and listen to me. I don't want to be the one who is always ignored and pushed away..
bayleezan bayleezan
18-21, F
May 26, 2012