I Am Lonely

I am bad, I am evil. But if I have to live, I need friends. I have no friends. I know I am evil, I am sexually attracted to women. But believe me, I try my best not to look at them. Could I not at least have some friends? I never understand why even guys hate me or ignore me. Because I am ugly? Because I am terrible? Because I am of no use? I will lock myself up in a corner room and never go outside. I promise I will never look at women or their pictures. I promise I will try to be of some use. I just need someone to talk to. Just feel a little alive. I cannot even kill myself, I am such a coward. So I will have to live. Please, can I not have at least one friend?
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Nov 30, 2012