I Choose Bad Friends.

I used to live in NY where I had lots of friends, but I recently moved to California where I have no friends.
The whole transition of moving to California was big. Adjusting in school even bigger, the people here are so different I just don't like it. People try to befriend me, but I just weird out. I wish I would be able to make one decent friend that I can grow to trust and just chill with. If I did, I'm sure I would be able to become a better version of me. Someone like I used to be, not like I am now.
I go out and I always look sad. I feel alone and awkward. Sometimes after fighting with my boyfriend, I feel insecure and alone. The feelings get worse and I feel worse about myself- this isn't me. I've always been shy but never awkward. It hurts me in a way not many would understand.

Thanks for reading (:
neverdidateachh neverdidateachh
18-21, F
Jan 23, 2012