No One Is Really ThereI get really irritated when people are around me for a while,
I then zone out and become uninterested.
But I would prefer that than what I am now.
I've recently become one of those people who focuses her life around her boyfriend,
I call him my friend, lover etc
It's bad though because when he isn't there,
and no one else is there
I realize just how alone I am,
and really wish I had one or two folks I could call 'close friends'
And it's not like I don't have mates,
they are college mates, the mates I say hi and bye too,
not one you would confide in, give manicures to, go to the movies with,
or just chat for fun! it's impossible with these people.
it's rather sad really.