Why I Have Never Kept A Close Friend

The answer to this, I cannot tell you. It's been this way since I was little. Part of it was the fact that I moved a lot. But I've been in the same place for 10 years, so what else could be the cause? Its not necessarily the fact that I don't know how to be friendly. I think the friendship between me and someone else gets to the point where they see "the flaw". What is this flaw? I have no idea. But it's there, and it pushes people away every time. I've never confronted a lost friend and asked them, "Why did you stop being friends with me?" because I find that immature and quite frankly awkward. And yet, they are pushed away, and I'm alone once more. I thought it was because I was growing up and moving to different grades and what not, but now I am an adult and the trend still continues. Just this year, I thought I had developed a niche within a group of good friends, and in the blink of an eye they stopped inviting me to places and cut off most contact with me. Maybe I am a "negative" person to them. Maybe I'm just weird and deserve to be alone. But what I know is that I have so much love and caring for other people, and unfortunately I can't convey that to anyone. I've never been able to.
lostintranslations lostintranslations
18-21
1 Response May 5, 2012

No, dear. We are different kind of people, who doesnt' get into the normal stream, who are materialistic. That is the problem. We don't fit into their world.