Hard To Make Good Friends?

I was never surrounded with tons of friends, but I used to have one or two good friends at once in my life, but they've all faded away, moved away, or changed a lot. My grown kids are on their own and I've been married a long time but my husband works constantly, and we don't even have any couple friends. It doesn't seem to bother him.

Two women tried to befriend me in the past few years but it was about their interests and concerns, what I could do for them or to be available to listen - I was pretty good at it - but they didn't reciprocate. So I avoid them now. The best friend I have now is 30 years older than me, and she can't physically do much, and though she's nice to visit with I wish I had friends to do things with or even to talk to.

I don't know if it's mostly me because I think I know, or knew, how to be a good friend, though the longer it goes on the less confident I get... making platonic good, warm and sincere friendships is just seeming so difficult. And it's no fun being alone with just my own thoughts the majority of the time. BTW I'm not always this serious, I do like to laugh & also love music.
Justjune Justjune
51-55, F
Sep 8, 2012