Bogged Down

I'm not unappreciative of life. I truly believe that there's a sanctity there -- a sweetness to be had. Life is a precious gift, I know. It's just that my life seems to always be so bogged down with difficulties and when I reach for that sweetness I always end up empty handed. Ultimately I believe that happiness is really a decision. So I try to ignore external pressures but despite my dogged attempts at optimism they come from every direction. I believe in a higher power. I pray and I ask to be prayed for but the same misfortunes follow me no matter what I do. I just wish for some respite, an easier road. I wonder if God really loves me.
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Jan 24, 2013