Why Did I Marry Him

I ask myself that daily! I wish that I never married the man that I call my husband. I work full time and am currrently enrolled in college with a 10 month old baby. We have been together for 2 years... he does not work and sits on his *** all day. He plays his video games and lets the baby get into things. He does not clean at all and expects me to do everything myself. We have his father living with us who does the same thing. Sits on his *** and plays video games day and night. I think to myself why have I not left yet??!! The answer to that question I have not answered yet. I moved away from all of my family and friends to be with him and I think that I am afriad to be alone. No one wants a woman with a baby.... I have tried to talk to him about me leaving and the way that I feel and he just blames me for the way that I feel and says that I can change it. Well I have tried. I have tried going to counsoling and talking to someone about the way that I feel about my life with him. He refuses to talk to anyone for he thinks that nothing he does is wrong. He yells at me all the time and blows up and starts throwing things all over the house. Sometimes I am scared to leave our daughter with him. He also has a drug problem. He refuses to give this up. I guess he feels that he is 28 and his mom still smokes so he can too with my daughter growing up. This is not the life that I had planned for her... What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to make him realize that I do love him but I wish that I had never married him!?

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fuckitalltohell fuckitalltohell
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 1, 2010

Well we can't tell you how to handle the situation. I believe by the time we ask the question we already know the answers.