Written on November 11th, 2012
When I was little my parents didn't put me in any kind of "extra curricular" activity It's not that they didn't have the money it was that any of their friends with kids were not kids anymore. My parents had me late my mom was 37 while my dad was 40. I grew up an only child and didnt have many friends to play with at that age because I didn't know anybody. My parents didn't think to put me in pre school so I went into kindergarten an ignorant child. I didn't know of ballet for little girls and gymnastics and all of the other "life altering" commitments. The closest i came was piano lessons and I hated that. All of my life I wanted to belong to some kind of group. I tried ba
seball and soccer in middle school and nothing stuck. My longest commitment was choir which was good because I love to sing, but I still felt like my parents didnt see any potential in me because they never offered singing lessons or anything. It seemed like everyone I went to high school with had their own niche. Whether it be swimming, gymnastics or of course dance. There was a local dance company in my town and some of the senior company i went to high school with. I remember seeing them preform and how dedicated they were and i was so jealous! they got to do all different kinds of dances, got to travel the world, go to competitions and had so much confidence. I recently started to watch the show Dance Moms and while it is hilarious and entertaining It actually makes me sad. I know not everybody stays with it all their lives and its not for them, but i feel like I would and I would love it. I really hate the fact that I have regrets. I always try to look past things and move on but this is the one thing that I think I'll always question. I don't resent my parents but sometimes it upsets my that they never had big dreams for me. I wish that I could go back and tell my parents I just wanted to dance.