I Wish I Could Rewind My Life And Tell My Parents I Wanted To Dance.

When I was little my parents didn't put me in any kind of "extra curricular" activity It's not that they didn't have the money it was that any of their friends with kids were not kids anymore. My parents had me late my mom was 37 while my dad was 40. I grew up an only child and didnt have many friends to play with at that age because I didn't know anybody. My parents didn't think to put me in pre school so I went into kindergarten an ignorant child. I didn't know of ballet for little girls and gymnastics and all of the other "life altering" commitments. The closest i came was piano lessons and I hated that. All of my life I wanted to belong to some kind of group. I tried baseball and soccer in middle school and nothing stuck. My longest commitment was choir which was good because I love to sing, but I still felt like my parents didnt see any potential in me because they never offered singing lessons or anything. It seemed like everyone I went to high school with had their own niche. Whether it be swimming, gymnastics or of course dance. There was a local dance company in my town and some of the senior company i went to high school with. I remember seeing them preform and how dedicated they were and i was so jealous! they got to do all different kinds of dances, got to travel the world, go to competitions and had so much confidence. I recently started to watch the show Dance Moms and while it is hilarious and entertaining It actually makes me sad. I know not everybody stays with it all their lives and its not for them, but i feel like I would and I would love it. I really hate the fact that I have regrets. I always try to look past things and move on but this is the one thing that I think I'll always question. I don't resent my parents but sometimes it upsets my that they never had big dreams for me. I wish that I could go back and tell my parents I just wanted to dance.
chrissijoy chrissijoy
18-21, F
3 Responses Nov 11, 2012

Update: Thank you so much for your kind words and support! I have some really exciting news for you! :) I decided I didn't want to wait any longer and that I was going to do something about it. So I signed up for adult ballet classes at my local dance studio! I had my first class yesterday and I really think I am going to enjoy it :) I know that it will be a lot of hard work but I am so happy that I am finally pursuing my dreams. So thank you once again, your post played a huge part in my decision and I could not be happier :)<3

Hello! I'm 18 and I've been "battling" the same kind of situation my whole life. My parents "had me late" aswell. When my mom and dad had me, my mom was 36 and my dad was 35. However, I am not an only child, I am the youngest of 3. (The oldest two are twins). Well, when I was 5, & the twins were 7, my father died suddenly of a heart attack during church. Of course, I really didn't know what was going on, but, I do remember very distinctly having a strange feeling that day. Anyways, with me being the youngest with a single mom, I've always felt as if my dreams were "put on the back burner." However, as I've gotten older, I've been very very proactive in letting my mom know what I wanted to do in life. (and of course it's changed about 6 million times) As I left elementary school, and got into middle school, I paid attention to what my friends were doing. And kind of wanted to do everything they did. Now my mom was so busy with the twins that I never really got to "spread my wings" until around 8th grade or 9th grade, I worked out a deal with my mom in highschool, and it was if I could find my niche on my own, and help fund it by working, she would do everything she could to make me succsessful in that niche. Now, it wasn't until about 4 years ago, that I found my niche, I actually found two. They were Athletic Training/Sports medicine and Dance. Now because I found my niche at the beginning of hs, I never really pursued it. Until last year when I REALLY started maturing. And gaining my independence. And I kind of "let my dreams guide me" for a year. I don't 100% regret doing that, I just made some really dumb mistakes in that year. However, I learned a lot about my self when I "took the reigns of my dreams."I just wanted to share my similar story with you and give you some advice. (:I have always believed, and always will believe that you are never "too old" to have a dream. My advice is to look for your niche! I know you'll find it soon! And once you do, just run with it! As for dance; Start taking a Zumba class at a local studio or gym! Zumba is a great way to meet new people, and a lot of them are dancers! As I think of more ideas to help you with your dream, I'll reply to this post so you can "run with your dream" of being a dancer! Best of luck!! -BB

It would be just so nice to go back and do all the things we missed out on.