I wish i could say o to food. I wish when I said "this is the last time" to a Binge/Purge it would actually be the last time. I wish I had control over food not food over me.
2bperfect 2bperfect
22-25, F
5 Responses Jan 8, 2013

I feel the same way! Maybe we can help each other

I know exactly what you mean and I feel the same way. If you ever need anyone to talk to, remember I'm here

Have you tried healthy weight loss? I have and it never works and then I feel like a nut for wanting to be anorexic! Now I do crazy stuff, and I lose weight, but I still eat. I'm not sure if that makes me lucky or not.... I feel crazy and wish my depression wasn't in charge of my diet! :(

You don't want to be anorexic. And you can't just decide to be anorexic because anorexia is a mental disease. I am 13 and I suffer from anorexia and it is TERRIBLE. When your anorexic you literally have a fear of gaining weight. You don't have a choice but to say no to food. Every time I step on that scale, it doesn't matter how much I lose, I hate it. In tree weeks I have lost 12 pounds. Its not enough, it will never be enough. I starve myself because Im scared of being called fat. You don't want to be anorexic. You can't just wake up and decide that you are anorexic. If you did I wouldn't be. Every time I say "I'm not going to starve myself anymore" I wish I wasnt going to starve myself anymore........

I'm sure she LOVES binging and purging and living the life she lives. She obviously doesn't want that!

I'm not anorexic and I LITERALLY have a fear of gaining weight. It is terrible. I don't have a choice but to say yes to food. Every time I step on a scale it doesn't matter how much I lose I hate it. In three weeks I have lost 5 pounds. It is not enough. It will never be enough. I eat even though I'm afraid of being called fat, except that I am fat. See when I look in the mirror I hate what I see.

You can't just wake up and decide to have bulimia either (not that I have diagnosed this young lady with bulimia, I'm no expert). You don't want to be fat. You don't want her eating disorder. Every time she overeats she tells herself it will be the last time.

You are 13. You are too young to judge. You think you know everything and you don't. Your situation sucks, but that doesn't mean it's worse than everyone else's. That is so self-centered! You're one of those kids that is going to grow up and have a crappy life and blame your parents. Get over yourself.

Just like you want to get well, so does 2bperfect. I'm sorry if I made some assumptions about her, I am not her and her story could be different. I just want you to see that it is ridiculous to assume that your life is worse than that of others. Your ED sucks. Her ED sucks.

Play nice. I hope for the best for both your Eating Disorders. I hope that you can be empathetic toward others. I hope that you can heal from whatever malady you are trying to remedy. I hope we can all tame the crazy :).

I'm sorry if I was at all harsh or rude, I just really want to get across that you are not alone, and your comments were not nice or empathetic. You would think people with eating disorders would be understanding and kind ESPECIALLY to others with eating disorders!!!

hello, lets exchange numbers so we can help eachother become anna??