Me? Strong?

I have people telling me all the time that I'm strong.  I just don't see it.  I feel like I have everyone fooled in that respect.  Maybe if they knew the real me, the one that is depressed all the time and constantly thinks about suicide, then they'd change their mind.  How can someone who thinks that way be stong?  I just don't get it......

ShatteredSilk ShatteredSilk
36-40, F
6 Responses Mar 2, 2009

i have been there and still am, people tell me that i am strong and they look up to me, when really i am not. i am always sad because of the loss of my two best friends (not by death). every-one told me to get over it so i pretend that i have i pretend i am happy. i am here if u want to talk.

I think there is a point in everyone's life where you have to decide if you want to improve your current situation. Most people I know would always want to improve something in their lives. Some of them make it happen whilst others try only to eventually fail in their attempts. It is no easy task to transform your life whether it is a financial situation, health situation or relationship situation. People just seem to struggle when it comes to change and the reason behind this is fear.<br />
Whatever you are trying to change in your life can be done by following two simple steps. Decide what you want to change and then make sure that you make it happen. Everything else in between is just a means to the eventual end. It was only when I discovered the power of my mind that things took a drastic turn for me. Since that discovery I have not looked back, in fact I know that I will always be improving myself since I discovered how powerful my mind can be.<br />
I owe this new healthy lifestyle to the simple and effective process of disciplining the mind and unconditioning myself to my previously brainwashed state. Remember that if you want to change you have to start with your mind. No one is going to do it for you there is only one way to change and it comes from within you.<br />
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I remember when I was in art college when I was young, and I was having suicidal thoughts, and I went to try to get help and all the counselor told me was that I was strong. That was all he had to offer. I had to get up and leave with that. And that's all I've ever had, like you. The knowledge that other people believe that I am strong. Somehow, his words were prophetic, because I became strong.

Thank you both for your kind words. I'm trying to learn to believe in the strength everyone says I poses. It a one day at a time thing, one foot in front of the other. Somehow I keep finding the strength and will to keep going forward and living each day. Is that what true strength? Someday I will see it.....

OMG!!!! I am so there, yes the strong one, always, no one knows how bad it is. But we will be FINE right????? That is what we strong ones do.

I understand where you're coming from, its because you always have the courage to face it and deal with it. Depression is just a way we deal with it... You always find the answers, in time you find that this thing called depression is just another tool we use to help us understand and feel what it all means.<br />
You are strong, because you keep moving forward, ... but at your own pace... :)