A Product Of The 90s

I am a creative person that wishes I was better at math and science. I am fine at science. I like it. I am an analytical person but I'm moody and a bit chaotic, unstable. I wish I was just analytical and driven so I can have a job working as a scientist. I respect them so much.
There are reasons why I'm not too great at math. My mother had a knack for math and I when I was kid I was fine at it. Ok from 2003 to 2007 they kept putting me in math classes that were too early in the morning for me. For years I had insomnia and a messed up sleeping pattern from dumb ADD meds. So I was tired in all my morning classes and sometimes late afternoon ones. The teachers used to get annoyed that I was always so tired. What can I do? Jr high and high school I was sleep deprived. Sleep deprivation is a big problem these days for teenagers. Poor young people, we wonder why they struggle so much and perform poorly in academics.
Well, considering that about four years of math is missing from my brain I wasn't too bad. I made it up to precalculus and trig which to math people is easy. For a person like me missing a few years of algebra it's amazing, kinda. It's amazing how bad the way schools are set up. I mean people like me slipping through the cracks. My problem wasn't even a learning disorder. I was just not healthy. How many kids have mental problems and sleeping problems out there?
For years I was labeled with ADD like so many others during the 90s. What a bunch of crap that was. My attention span was tested several times. Results were always within normal range. I know because they would say, "Oh attention span is normal." I don't have ADD but still doctors just said I did because they didn't understand what was going on with me. Then 2009 I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome and Bipolar disorder. Hurray, at least there aren't drugs doctors want to give me for AS.
I still need to take a college math class. I really don't want to since I'm afraid of failing. I should get a tutor.
I don't know. ****. I'm so angry and depressed today.
Just venting
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22-25, F
Sep 26, 2012