Dreams Could Becomes True...

I just have this thought constantly in my mind even I dreamed about that... about to becoming a real woman. I spend a lot of time looking woman clothes and dreaming about me being a real woman and wearing all those beautiful clothes. I constantly dream about go to the beach wearing a nice and sexy bikini and lay down in the sand and get tanned. I dream about going out to party with the others girls. And flirt with the guys and girls as well. I really want to wear make up and hot sexy black dress. Couple of nights ago I had a dream about having sex as girl and I had a beautiful **** instead of this ugly penis. I dream about having boobs and wearing bra wear g string and some sexy lingerie. Sometimes I really want that all my dreams could become true. The reality is sad and I just feel like a failure in all aspects of my personal, professional and emotional life. I wish I could do something to change this reality and turn it more similar to my dreams. I don't know what I should do the only thing what I know is I'm a girl trapped in a male body I'm sad and alone.