I Don't Know

Half the time I'm happy or at least I try to make myself believe I am happy. then there are nights where I will cry for hours at a time. sometimes for no reason at all. like I'm just upset. I live a good life. I have a wonderful home and family but I feel like something is missing inside me. I get extremely depressed. one time so bad I tried to hurt myself but I couldnt do it. sometimes I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up and I have no clue why. I have high expectations for myself and I feel as if my family does to. I never want to disappoint them but its like I'm not happy and I end up doing stuff and I disappoint them. then im even more unhappy. i just want to be happy with who i am and know im not a disappointment. I just don't know what to thinker what to do. I want to please everyone. I jut feel worthless.
icantbeperfect icantbeperfect
18-21, F
Nov 25, 2012