It's Too Much

I hate my face, I hate my body, and obviously I hate life. I'm ugly, weird, quirky, and stupid. I hate most people because of their endless ignorance and unwillingness to educate themselves, along with some people who like to shove their beliefs down your throat.
I hardly trust anyone, so I'm not going to get into a relationship or anything.
I hate seeing what the world comes to with all the abuse, violence,rape, racism, and other crimes.
I wish I could live in my mind forever; I would never have to witness anything awful happening and I probably wouldn't have grown up as f'd up as I have.
I'm sick of people trying to tell me what to do with my life; they might as well live it for me.
I'm my own person and I'll do what I want.
For another thing, I repress all of my emotions I don't want to talk to people because I know I'll get 'slapped in the face' with ignorance.
I hate how girls are told to be a certain way, skinny &curvy, prim and proper; we're not all built the same way! F*** society and its 'standards.'
I wish I could be genderless that way I could be exactly what I want and not have to hear people criticize me for not being girly enough or manly enough.
Lastly, I know what I want and I'm not getting it.
I don't see the point to living life if sh*t is going to keep happening and life is going to keep knocking you down. If we're all going to die anyway I don't see the point of living life.
Ps. Not really looking for an answer.
Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage
18-21, F
Jan 10, 2013