Why Do I Lose My Confidence?

I am usually a very confident and social person. I can talk and joke and even flirt with guys with the best of them. No problem, until they say or do something that tells me they are interested in me. Then I freeze up and become Ms. Pathetically Shy. It happens every time. I don't know why, but I am comfortable only when I don't think that I am the object of his attention. Even if I want to be the object, even if I try to be the object, once I actually get attention I run away. I start feeling self-conscious, and start stumbling over words and altogether not a fun girl. More than one guy has walked away from me, confused. The other day I was at a party and was really having fun talking to this one guy. He was perfect looking and had a great sense of humor. The whole package. I really wanted to get his attention, and was using all my secret tricks to get him interested in me. I suceeded -- he began to hit on me pretty heavy. Nothing out of line, but enough to know that I had caused a spark. I didn't know what to do, so I excused myself to go to the bathroom. After a few moments to catch my breath, I returned to the party, but stayed with my girlfriends. I didn't ignore the guy, but he never got another chance to approach me. I was so depressed when he left I almost cried.
LeslieCat LeslieCat
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 30, 2012

my god.. that has happened to me a few times.. but i always just thought that the girl probably wasnt interested and used it as an excuse to get away from me.. im not the type to chase so i never tried to talked to them again.. i just moved on..