My Life Totally Sucks
II have been with my boyfriend for over 2 years, we have been living together sicne then. I am now recently seeing a lot of stuff that is making me think twice. Our first couple fights living together in our own place wasn't horrible it was just about me being a ***** all the time and of course I would snap it back at him, he would call his mom so she can monitor us ( which really pissed me off). Then last year in July, he had woken me up over something stupid, I started yelling, he was throwing things, the guy upstairs heard everything, even me, he called the cops and since I had no other place to go they took him to his parents for the night. I went upstairs and he told me that he was the one who called and said I should leave bacause he was blaming everything on me. Lately it has been a fight if I wanna go to my moms and spend time with them, I am not allowed to do anything without him knowing and being okay with it. And to get to the recent stuff, on Thrusday, I got off work an hour early at 7 and I was excited to get home and change, anyways we got a snow storm and he was like I am drinking and we are gonig out to a friends place. First of all I wanted to go home get a shower and change but he wasn't gonig to do that. We got to his friends house and after being there 45 minutes I asked when we were leaving ( which I should have maybe kept my mouth shut) anyways at around 11:30 I was like I am gonig to the car. I had enough. He came out 15 minutes later, already had his pint gone and was cussing me out saying I was a ***** for doing what I did and leaving, I am selfish for thinking about myself and how I never wanna do anything. He always drinks from Friday - Sunday every weekend and since christmas he has drank all this week. He doesn't work and I make the money so I never get to have fun with the money I make and as back to the story, as we were driving I told him since I get paid on friday I was going to pay off the whole internet bill so they wouldn't cut if off, he told me no, and that I have to listen to him, I told him I ain't listening to no one other that me when it comes to me making money because I work my *** off to get a paycheck working at Tim Hortons, dealing with people. When I said that he told me to get the **** out that he was going to throw all my stuff out for being a ***** and selfish only thinking about myself. After that I stayed quiet because I was tired and wanted to go to bed and just hated the fact I never get to do things that concern me, when we got home I went right to the bedroom and sat on the bed to eat my bread and since he told me to stay off the computer I wasn't allowed even though we both got the computer for a christmas present that his parents bought us and the internet bill is in my name and I pay for it, anyways when I turned on the light he took out all the light bulbs in the room so I could sit in the dark and told me to stay there and shut up. Now Friday the day that just passed we were getting along great hada pint to eachother and then he lost something and was flipping out threw his table that we had at the side of our bed out the window and my christmas candle. He broke them both and told me I was no good for nothing because I would no help him. The he took the blanket and set it on the couch I told him I need a blanket and he said go **** yourself, i tired to grab the blanket and he pushed me I feel and he said smarten up, next thing you know his mom comes in the room telling us to shut up and that she was trying to sleep, and he said don't blame it on me blame it on the ***** in the room. That really topped it because it is always me, never him, he thinks I blame him for everything and I don't, I know my faults but when he gets mad he gets really mad and takes it out on everyone else and if you say something the wrong way he flips out. Told me if it wasn't for me he would already be graduated two years ago, now that makes me feel low, he says stuff that way to me all the time,and how he is dating a 8 year old for me always crying, well I cry because I am depressed. He also got mad on Thursday because I did not want to drink with him and he gets pissed saying I never do anything with him . Tonight just a second ago he wanted more liqour and he just drank his pint and i bought myself my own had only one drink of out if and said i am having some of yours and i said no he gets all mad and said fine ill buy a half pint well he only had 4 dollars and i said well let me see how much i have in change, then i said ill just use my bank card he starts flipping cause he is like your gonna pay for that instead of giving me two shots out of your, first off I never had anything to myself and then i said yeah i will just pay for it on my bank card he gets all mad and tells me i cant come because i am an idiot and says whats ur pin number i said i aint giving you my card , I am not that stupid and pushes me and tells me I am an ungratful little *****. I am to the point where I can't have anything to myself and this is the reason why i buy him his own pint so i can have one to myself for once.