Nothing In My Life Amounts To Anything

I am just so tired of getting hurt and being such a disappointment to my dad who apparently thought that having an adopted child meant that you could mold the child, obviously not.Im so sick of being depressed and sad all the time. I have taken anti depressants before, they only made me worse, Ive tried to be positive but that failed, i've tried to change and be a better person it just not who I am. Im just ready to sleep forever.

YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
26-30, F
2 Responses Jul 22, 2010

I know why I am the way I am and who I am. I cant find what would make me happy because I have found what would make me happy and it is impossible to get, or i should say she is impossible to get. Knowing my mother would complete my life but that will never happen because shes dead and dealing with that and moving on from it is the biggest challenge I have to face. The pain of not knowing her will haunt me for the rest of my life and no substitute will ever fulfill my want to know her.

When we look into our past and find the reason we are who we are, we are much better to deal with it. You need to find what would make you happy inside. Most people in life have a story to tell but how we deal with it and make it better defines who we are. Live life, find your higher power, and learn to love yourself. It is up to you to find your peace. I dont say this without much experience of abuse, rejection, and finding my way to peace. I hope you find your happiness and peace. When you know you deserve it and love yourself you will start to see the change. No one can change you, you have to change yourself.<br />
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Amara