Worthless Parents

The reason why I wish I was never born is because of my parents. They had me when they were 35 and 38. My mom did not love my dad and just wanted to get married and have a child before she was too old. However, she hates children and is a major workaholic. My father was a drug addict, an alcoholic, and had an outstanding police record so bad that the state police had a picture of him in the cars saying 'do not approach this man.'
I could never grow up fast enough for my mom and when I was three, she lost complete interest in me unless if it was about smacking me around or mentally abusing me. Even now, my mom does not fully accept the way I am and I know she never will. She constantly makes me empty promises and will stand me up if we are to do something together. My father is a very selfish man and is always suspicious of what I am doing. He no longer does drugs or alcohol, but he currently has Hepatitis C. He has threatened to hurt me and kick me out of the house.
My parents weren't and still aren't ready to be parents. They are too busy wrapped up in their own pathetic lives to even comprehend that.
iLostMySoul iLostMySoul
18-21, F
6 Responses Jul 25, 2011

it's the same here. my stupid parents are too freaking self-absorbed to do their job properly. no one is in jail yet, but they totally should be.

wow, even mine aren't quite that bad. Don't let what people say bother you either, when they try to suggest possible excuses for their behavior or by trying to downplay the effect of it all. My mom is (and has been since I was born) schizophrenic (and unmedicated.. and a self absorbed ***** to boot) and my dad is an emotionally abusive and manipulative narcissist with rage issues and a pot addiction, so I am familiar with having two worthless parents. I'm so sorry. Good to hear you are in counseling.. that's the best thing you can do, aside from maybe read "The Art of Happiness" by the Dalai Lama. It has started to help me. Good luck.

And good luck to you as well. I'm sorry your parents are like that. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

dear you must be stand on your own feet...not to thing about what they did and what they are doing now..you are a human and you can live in any condition try to ding out your own self...

I am so sorry to hear that. I always complain about my life and how unlucky I am. Now, I realise that I was selfish for not realising how my life is good...<br />
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You must have a horrible childhood and a difficult life. I suggest that you see someone (ex: psychologist) to whom you can talk to and share your problems because you will feel that someone is listening. It gives you hope and you will feel surrounded by people you know who cares about you. They will give you comfort, supports and useful advices.<br />
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I believe your parents don't hate you from the bottom of their heart. They might look indifferent toward you, but unconsciously, they love you, but don't know how to express it. Your mom probably doesn't know how to be a good one, so does your dad. Maybe, they should see someone for help.<br />
They might have a lot of stress.<br />
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Stay strong. Jesus loves you and knows your pain. He wants to help you. <3

I am seeing a therapist and she helps me out a lot. Both of them are seeing someone as well, but they are in denial about everything that has to do with the way they raised me, myself included.

Luckily, my mother doesn't live with us anymore; they got divorced when I was nine. I would leave the house, but I have nowhere to go and I don't want to leave my grandmother behind

that must be had to live with everyday. i would leave the house anyways before they kick you out. maybe they will then appreciate their son/daughter alot more