Pregnancy Scares.. Not Such a Scare

Its been a year and a half since the pregnancy scare.. i'm married to that long-term boyfriend now, we have a dog, a couple cats, but still no baby. I had another semi scare but turns out it was just my body getting ready for its period. Since that 1st scare jan '09 when this post was written my periods changed to once every other month or so. I dont know why it all of a sudden changed. I never know when its coming. My husbands sister had a baby 2 weeks ago, shes has no money for a baby, shes to immature, younger then me, and her bf is 12 yrs older and i think she took him off the street. Its not fair.. she didnt even take care of herself while she was prego.. smoked and stuff. She taking for granted the gift of a child.. i should have that gift.. i deserve it i think. I have had major baby fever since the jan '09 scare. I am turning 21 in 3 days.. married for a year next month, amazing husband. I dont work, he does, so we are getting by but financed are still not the best and the apartment we are in is no place for a child. We have made a plan to see where we are in 1 year, when the lease runs out, and get a 2 bdrm apartment and begin a family. I cant see being able to wait a year. I have dreams of babies, I have names picked out, the vision in my head is 24/7.. But everything around me is babies babies! Sister in law has the baby, all tv shows have something about babies, every store i go in, when i go outside, when i meet people, go to church, walk my dog.. its everywhere and i feel like its mocking me!!

i feel the same way. i had a pregnancy "scare" about 6 months ago. i hadnt had a period in months i was hungery and fatigued all the time among many other pregnancy symptoms. i was happy. i thought i was pregnant and wasnt scared one bit. it was the happiest time of my life. having that baby was all i thought about. i got a little too eagar and bought a few clothing items from my work (i work at babies r us) and there was this one onesie that i looked at every day. i used to lay it on my bed and imagine the my baby in it in 8 months. then i found out i was not a few weeks later. its so weird how it can be so devistating for someone to lose somthing they never had but it was for me. everytime i see that onesie i have to hold back tears. i want to have a baby to love so badly. its not fair that some people so selfishly kill their babies when people like us want them so desperately.

I wish I could have a family to be broken.

I know exactly how you feel! I have been maried for over 6 months.... we live with my parents to save up for a house. I do already have a daughter from an old relationship but we have 50/50 custody so I only have her for 7 days and then she is gone for 7 days. It makes me feel like my family is so broken and that I just want to have a baby with my new husband to have a whole family all the time, I miss my girl terribly when she is gone, its not that I want to replace her I just hate to see her go every other week. And every time I try to talk to my husband about us having a baby together I get the same old story about how money is tight and we need to get into our house first. I hate being put off I have wanted this for years with my new man, first it was let's wait a while then it was lets wait to be married then it was lets be married for a while first then it was let's wait to get a house. It hurts, I know