I just had a pregnancy scare, I was having alot of prego symptoms, but I got my period yesderday after I took a negative HPT. But I found myself thinking that I would really like to be pregnant.. have the experiance, have a baby to love, a new major connection with my boyfriend.
But now really shouldnt be the time to have a child, as me and my bf are not even married or engaged even though we really wish we were, we are just really bad on money and living in a small partment with his mom! I have no job, he got layed off because of slow work in the winter, as he builds houses.
I really just want to be pregnant though.. But it would also cause problems with finances, family, church.. Its not really fair. Everyone around me is having babies, i no several freinds and family who have had babies in the past 3 years. They are all so well off with money, and understanding parents and freinds.. I fee life is unfair for me.
If we had the money I'd have a ring on my finger, we'd get married in a few months, move into an apartment of our own, get a dog, have kids in a year or two.
But life is not like that for us. Nope. :(
I'm not a very patient nor content person. But i am forced to be.