Don't Know

I've been in a relationship for almost a year. Feel very close to my guy. He has two kids from an ex. One in 2 and one is 3...It feels like everyone but me is married, engaged, pregnant, or has kids already. I know its just a hard transition for me. Most of my friends we used to talk about getting ****** up and going home with random guys. Now everyone talks about their kids. I don't live with my boyfriend and it gets hard for me sometimes to live alone. I get worried to that if I don't have a baby soon I'll lose the opportunity forever. I know this is all unreasonable but I can't help to feel that way. I want a baby really bad. I know my boyfriend wants one too because he'll talk about missing when his kids were babies and about wanting to start a family with me. But we're not married, not living together. We're trying to save up money to get a place together but we're always stuggling with money. I don't want to say anything about wanting a baby cuz I don't want hm to think thats all I want out of our relationship. Having kids is always something I wanted to do. Women have had babies in much worse circumstances than I'm in now and I think it would be hard but I could handle it. Oh well, guess all good things have to wait.

PippyPunk PippyPunk
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 5, 2010

I say that to myself too.... "People have been worse off than us and they have had kids." It's hard to wait, I totally understand. I hate it! :)