Everyone But Me...

I have always been the momma hen. I was the one who took care of my friends when they were sad. I was the one who went out of her way to help people in need. Not because I wanted something out of it but just because I believe everyone should have someone to count on. I never worried about me I tried never to ask for help. It kills me that since i have left my abusive husband I have had no choice but to ask for help. Help from my brother for a place to stay,help from my mother to pay my car note until I get back on my feet. I don't feel comfortable relying on other people for things, I am suppossed to be the strong one the one that people can lean on. After everything that I have been through I would love nothing more than to be able to find a partner that will be there for me as much as I am for other people. Someone who can say just relax sweetie I will take care of everything. You are always taking care of everyone else let me take care of you for awhile. Relax, kick back and let all the good you send out into the world to come back to you. I appreciate that I have had moments in my life where I have been blessed enough to share what I can with those in need. Few things give me more satisfaction then to be able to make someone's day better by giving them a helping hand. But still it would be nice to be on the receiving end a little more often. To be babied, loved and appreciated. Sometimes always being the strong one gets exhausting. I long for the day when I find someone who will say I got this one. Let me take care of you for a change.
quizkitty quizkitty
31-35, F
4 Responses Jul 17, 2011

i had to read it 3 times to make sure i didn't write that! you wrote everything in my mind, do the good people ever get what they truely deserve? I wish i could take care of you because also my giving nature compells me.Alas i also am in need of some taking care of. So i can't offer much, but you can know your not alone! i am not religious but i did hear a saying once that kind of cheered me up , replace (god) with your choice .... god always tests those he loves the most. (:BIG BEAR HUG:)

one day at a time it will get better.

"let me take care of you for a change" wouldn't it be lovely to hear that? i more than understand what you're saying!

your feelings are very well-stated. everyone needs some tender care. best wishes.