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I Wish, But I Can't.......

I wish I were dead right now.... I wish I wouldn't even have born.... I don't think people would miss me at all, and they shouldn't.... the ones who say that I can't do this because of my family and friends I just have one thing to say....... C'mon, grow up a little bit will you, we are like news in a paper, we die and people may remember of us in a time but after time pass they will forget about us.... don't let the others feelings affect you.... like myself....... I still didn't kill myself and I have a big motive for that, and the motive is NOT because my family, is NOT because my friends, is NOT because the person I love(if there is one...).... I didn't end my life because it would be not fair to myself..... tomorrow can be a day better than today and if I end my life right now I won't be able to live that day..... it would be just my fault.... but I really wish I was dead.... but I can't kill myself... if I could I would have already done it and you wouldn't be able to read this
TheX TheX 18-21, M 5 Responses Nov 14, 2011

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You chose so, so you could write this. I chose so, so I could read you. I hope it get better for both of us..

I know exactly how you feel. I tried to kill myself plenty of times but everyday is something different and I have to keep fighting for me. No one else and take things a day at a time.

What makes you feel bad? If you can identify and immediately change that then maybe you wouldn't want to die anymore.

I think we all have days and weeks we feel like nothing is going right for us and that we're completely worthless and the only thing that happens to us is being used and abused. But don't give up. Killing self is no solution - it makes matters linger and people do remember. And they do hurt.

I know exactly how you feel... *hugs*

*hugs abck*, I'm sorry for you then.... living this is just the worst nightmare that exists.... somehow I think I wait for someone to kill me.... but if I tell someone then I'm crotolling then and I would be suiciding myself the same way....