Screwed Up Someone's Life

If I could give me life to save my daughter's, I would.  Wish that were possible - to save someone.  But the person has to want to be saved and accept help.  Somehow I was a terrible parent, made terrible decisions, and the result is a depressed, unmotivated young adult that I don't ever see coming out of it because she's afraid to do ANYTHING to help herself.  She doesn't respect me, so no suggestion from me is considered.  I've tried to get her to connect to others I feel could help her to no avail.  Forget all the counselors, psychologists, and psychiatrists.  They never seemed to think her problems were that severe - but of course, they took the money.  Now here is a person that doesn't do anything all day.  Just hides in her room.  Doesn't take care for herself, eat right, exercise, etc. 

All I ever wanted to do was to be a parent.  That is so ironic.  What a burden guilt is... I try to carry on but I feel like the life is sucked out of me.  Whatever I do, no matter what good I try to do the rest of my life, will not compensate for completely and utterly destroying a life.  I am embarrassed and humiliated every day.
linktoscreamer linktoscreamer
51-55
May 9, 2012