I Don't Want To Be Here

Everything I do turns out to be a mistake. Or I'm wrong, or I end up failing. I'm never good enough. I spend most of my days saying, I wish I were dead, I wish I were dead. All day. Every day. I don't have the guts to kill myself, otherwise I would have done it a while ago. I just keep waiting. And waiting. I'm tired of it. I don't want to be among the living anymore. Really, because I'm already dead.

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4 Responses Mar 5, 2010

Oh hun I'm sorry I feel that way a lot because I suffer at school on my parents' money and my sister is really happy and knows what she wants to do with her life and I am in neutral I feel I have no purpose and am a waste of creation sometimes. What is it that is makin ya feel suicidal?

The fact that life doesn't get better and never will. There are hard things ahead and it will just be easier to die.

No no no don't wish you were dead don't let people get you down if ya need to talk you could message me

Talking doesn't help

Well ok then

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If i had the guts i would kill myself...

I've been depressed my whole life. I am married with kids and a full time job. I hate my job, my house is a disaster, my kids are out of control. I have failed at everything. I don't have any friends, I don't have any family, I hardly see my husband because of our work schedules. I wish I had killed my self in junior high when I first started seriously considering it. Now I feel like such a burden. I've already failed everyone, I don't want to put them through the trauma of my suicide, but I can't go on like this forever. It doesn't get better, not for me. When is enough enough? What's the point? I feel so alone.

as i always say "i dont want to be alive if i cant live!" and depression at its worst is neither life or death. i can say...in time your feelings, your life, will change. i cant say what to, but change does happen and change is good. nothing changes when youre depressed cause nothing matters but it cant stand still forever...at some point, life will go on, maybe on to something amazing or maybe just normal, but the point is, if you kill your self...u will never know<br />
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ps-i was a cutter for years, my left arm is covered in scars. there are times when i want to hurt my self or other people, i go on my boxing bag or scream my head off lol. i havent took a razor to my wrist for over a year and the last time before that i was 16. im 25 now....things do change x