Choices

Bugger I went the wrong way. Or, from my tiny little perspective it seems I did. But really I doubt the idea that we always have a choice. I think we made the best choice we can under the circumstances we are in. With hindsight, when older and wiser, we may say "I would have done things differently", but at the point in time when the decision was made, I don't think that option was available.

There are a lot of things I would have done differently, probably just like a lot of people. But I am aware that I make the automatic assumption that different decisions would mean better results and that is not a given. I am where I am. So, dissatisfied as I am with my life, I want to try and change the future by changing the present. It is not easy as I have to go against my comfortably uncomfortable self (if you get what I mean). Like a stream, I follow the easiest route down the mountain and that is where I fail. I need to face a more arduous, self-made one if I am to be truly happy. But I do not know if I have the strength and courage to follow it. Time will tell. But, I know I want to take another road now. It is not always too late.