Still Got Time....im 21 years old i found out recently that im pregnant..... 6 weeks today..... im terrified to be honest..... my partner and i have been debating the idea but i know hes sold on keeping the baby, me? i have good days i feel positive and think yeah i could do it i guess today is just a bad day i feel really fat and bloated and couldnt work out properly either as i got tired so quickly and felt horrible =(
thing is ive never been a baby or kid person to me there just a screaming lump that stupidly needy and smell of puke. me and my other half have been together just over a year previous relationship was another awful one and when i finally managed to get out i found the nice guy!! had the most amazing year of my life last year 4 holidays loads of festivals and enjoying life to the maximum.
first things first im selfish, high maintainence and hate feeling trapt and love change never stay in the same place for too long if im unhappy i change it! you cant change having children or the damage its going to do to your body...
my god im rambling but i guess what im trying to say is ive still got time to keep the life i have now ive been reading others posts and comments for a good couple of hours or so and decided to join to talk to a few of you about the situation im in now, im scared i will be feeling like most of you ladies trapt, stuck with children, hating your bodys and miserable. i could see this being me wether this is just my bad day talking i dont know but its always in the back of my mind but then again would it all really be worth it? would i feel happy looking down at my child or just feel resentment towards it and my other half too? there will be no coming back from this if i go ahead, ive never had to maek such a hard decision. =(