Why Does It Have To Be So Hard?

I really wish it was easy...

I think a lot. And sometimes I think a lot more than people that are normal really do. And it bothers me to no end. I hate the fact that I overthink things. And when I overthink things, that leads to thoughts that I really don't want to keep in my mind. But they stay there. And sometimes, when I'm unaware, they come up and tear at my mind and my insides, and I feel sick. Not sick physically, but mentally, and strained. My body goes through so much stress and gets so much more overworked than it really should, just because of the thoughts that cloud my mind. I want to be clear minded and just allow things to come in and go out as I please. I wish I could erase these thoughts that bring me sadness and hurt, I wish it was easy. But it never will be that way, and sometimes I try to forget those thoughts. It's painful and I wish it wasn't.

xXPsychochic56 xXPsychochic56
18-21, F
4 Responses Mar 3, 2010

yeah, starrr. I understand where you're coming from. It's hurts. And I wish it really didn't have to be that way.<br />
Recently I've tried tobe more positive and my mind has been getting better with bringing up negative thoughts. I've fixed a lot of things in my life recently and I've been able to think a lot clearer.

sometimes I wish I can shut off part of my mind to stop thinking.... so it wont bring me back to that feelings and recall those unwanted memories. i really want to move on but my mind wont stop thinking eventho u tried so hard to do things to get ur mind out of it and still no matter where I am or what im doing I cant stop thinking 'til Im back to feelin hurt again.

I think there are a lot of people out there that overthink things. I mean we're humans and that's what we're meant to do. :]<br />
Thanks for commenting guys. And just know there isn't anything wrong with you. Like at all.<br />
And Painter09, I'm in therapy too.

OMG, I thought it was just me that did that. I think about things so much that I find it impossible to do anything some times. I constantly feel stressed out and its really hard for me to relax.