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I know this is one of my rambling posts that makes no sense and garners me no pity since I am not a female who is wearing a bikini in my profile picture, but I digress. Recently I have bee noticing how easily I can get depressed. All it really takes is looking a pictures of hot females or I guess you could say seeing hot females. Because I know that no female will EVER find me attractive and will ever want to mate with me. That just depresses me. Then I start to wonder why.

I mean when I think back to the one female willing to be desperate enough to sleep with me. I can only think of one thing that I miss from our relationship. That one thing should be easy to guess, but just to break a few bubbles. I miss the sex, nothing more. All the other stuff was just work to get that few minutes of sex. Yet oddly enough if I had a regular venue of sex I would be happy. Because when I was having sex I was happy, no matter what anyone wants to say. Then we wrap into the world of how to get sex. I hear the same thing over and over again.

I just need to be happy with myself and my life. Well I can say I was pretty happy with my life about a year and a half ago. Yet oddly enough no females were interested in me. However, this is where I deadlock myself. You see I need sex to be happy, but I need to be happy to get sex. One resource requires another. So I am deadlocked and trapped in being depressed. I hate hearing how I need one to get the other. However, that is the truth I guess... except in my world which one is required for the other is generally different that what the world wants to believe.

So I see less and less point to continue living here in this world. My cat anchors me to this world. As much as I love her I curse her for that very reason. If she was not here I would have killed myself over a year ago. I would not be writing this post and I would be long forgotten to time. I will not do anything to hurt her, she is an old kitty. It just feels like every day lasts an etenrity and I want it to end so very badly. How many more years must I wait?

Regardless, there is no point to anything I do. I have been a corpse since high school. I am done caring or trying. So unless an act of god comes forth before my cat dies.. then I will be gone and there is nothing anyone can do about this. Oh well, I am a perfect example of natural selection. The weak and worthless should be culled and so I shall be once my cat dies.
ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
26-30, M
3 Responses May 20, 2012

Get help :|

>.> Let me guess, a bullet to the head doesn't count?

Have you tried getting on your knees and praying to God for help? I know some people think this is a pretty radical idea but I can testify to you that prayer is powerful. Prayer works and miracles happen everyday as a result of prayer. If life is as bad as you say it is, and I don't doubt your feelings one bit, then why not give prayer a chance? What can it hurt? If you approach prayer in a humble manner with an open mind I am sure that God will touch your heart. If you ever need anyone to talk to just ask and I will talk to you and help you. Please do not do anything that is permanent and final like you are suggesting. Once you walk through that door there is no turning back. Please give God a chance before you go any further. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Already tried it and failed

I will continue to pray for you. If I think of anything else that may be a help to you I will let you know. Please remember there are people out there who care about you. I am always here if you have a question or if you just want to talk. I pray that you will find peace and happiness. May God bless you.

Thanks, but no need to waste your prayers on something so worthless as me.

your not weak or worthless i hope and pray that god will comfort you until you find what your're looking for if that doesn't happen than i hope that cat lives as long as cockroaches

Kitty only has at most 10 years. Cats rarely live past 25. If you want to pray for something pray that god provides me with what I need.

i will and i hope he does don't hurt yourself ever you deserve better