My Family Thinks Everything Is "Fine"...

I hate how my family thinks that everything is okay because my weight is up.  It's not like I'm not doing all sorts of nasty things to lose weight like I was before.  I'm even more miserable now than when I was 64 lbs., my lowest weight.  They think that because I eat a little food now and then and my weight is stable (with no thanks to me) that I must be happy.  My mom told me that my depression has gone away.  Where the hell did that come from?  I cry every day because of what a nasty person I have become.  I starve myself for the very same reason.  They don't even see it.  My therapist and dietitian don't see it until I physically *tell* them I am miserable.  No one else has a clue.  I keep trying to tell them, but they are not getting it.

Licorice Licorice
31-35, F
1 Response Aug 5, 2007

It's amazing how unaware people are in this world. I've often thought that my depression is obvious but I really don't think it is. Other people just tend to not notice or not think about it.