Oh, it would be so much easier if I could just find that stupid switch!! If I could, my life would simplify in an instant. I could let go of him. Finally let go. Not hurt anymore knowing he's already decided to spend his future with another...one that will hurt him so deeply he will never recover. Part of me wants to let go so desperately, but then there is that part of me that just simply cannot do it. That is the part that keeps winning the battle, over and over again...oh, but if I could find that silly switch!!!!