Missing Part Of The Equation

My mom works full time. She goes out every weekend. She loves to hang out with my younger sister. I am the only part of the equation in my mother's life.

Work+Party+Sister-Me= Mom's life.

I think it all started when my parents got a divorce. I started lying to her, and got really bad grades in school. I lost my freinds in the process too. The one thing I lost that I need most was a mother. Now 7 years later and she hates me more then ever. She hates me for being a lesbian, for fighting with more sister, and mostly for the past. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back and stop myself. I know that if my relationship does get better it will never be the same. I have to learn to accept that. Even if it means growin up a motherless child. I've done it these past 7 years I can get through more.
hopeless101 hopeless101
22-25, F
Jan 19, 2013