And the Therapist Told Her So

We are a family of four. My parents have always been together , and my mom gave birth to my 30 year old sister before me. There has always been a history of introversian and aversion to socialize and talk in front of other people wince my sister and i were little. In school we would sit all by ourselves , and not talk to anybody ,i am 21 so we have quite a difference of age but still our stories are pretty much the same.

I came into this world with a skin disease called vitiligo , which meant i had to go to go the hospital for both physical and psychological examination and treatement , given the circunstances that vitiligo is closely related to stress and being nervous .

 

There was this occasion , when my mom and i had to have therapy together . After a short time , the therapist inmediatly let it all out

 

YOU ARE AN OVERPROTECTIVE MOTHER !!!! she said to her and my mom inmediatly came into denial mode and defended herself by saying that she was just doing what any good mom would do.

and then the therapist went about how repressed , quiet and non active i seemed to be all the time and that it had to do a lot with her control freak manners!!

 

Suddenly the therapist told me that i was allowed to dance and jump in her office table !!!

 

can you believe it she was telling me to trash her own office !!!

 

my mom got kinda angry and left to never come back.

 

But that was just the beginning . I havent been to a party in more than 5 years ,(almost cryng here)

Never have gone out to malls , clubs or anything that you can call "social " by myself !!

 

Never had boyfriend , or a girlfriend ( i recently came out to myself as a lesbian , its a long story)

and its so frustating when i cannot talk with them about my feelings because everything is "extreme" and taboo for their ultraconservative ways

 

everything i say its either crazy , stupid or worthless for them but they expect me to work for them , be a social buttterfly with everyone ( after i have spent so many years indoors because of my condition , AND NOW IM SUPPOSED TO KNOW IT ALL ? IM SUPPOSED TO BE THE MOST SUCCESSFUL PERSON ? IM SUPPOSED TO ACT LIKE THEMOST EXTROVERTED , ARTICULATE individual?

 

My dad has been on the cooler side and i could talk to him about anything , but now that im grown up he turned out to be the same as she is , he just believes everything she says

 

and the other day he beat me up while my mom looked without doing anything !!!

 

he has transformed into an angry idiot and he expects my sister who still lives with us to give up all her life savings to him so that he can buy an extra big house so that we can all live happily together

 

MY ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

ARE THEY OUT OF THEIR MIND ? I AM LOOKING FOR A JOB TO MOVE OUT WITH MY SISTER AS SOON AS POSSIBLE AND EXPERIENCE LIFE!!!!!!!

 

NON MOMS , NO DADS , JUST ME AND MY COURAGE !!

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1 Response Feb 23, 2009

Oh I'm sorry that your parents are crazy. You need to move out soon, so that you can be happier!