I Am Too Unique

I remember having friends and now it is as if I merely have people who just want me to listen to them. These same people don't seem to care what interests me. I wonder if it is just me, but it seems to me that these days people are so self absorbed. I try to talk to my supposed friends about my problems. They nod and pretend to listen and then go right on telling me their problems, as if what I was saying had no effect on them. It feels to me like I am not important enough to care about.

I know I will never be first in a relationship and I can accept that, but why do I have to be relegated to third place or lower in a list of priorities? I am tired of being second best. I know it is not reality but I wish just once I could be first in someone's eyes. I wish the people I cared about felt the same sentimentality I do about fond memories. Am I the only one who cares anymore? Or maybe it is that something is wrong with me. I'm not a magazine model and I'm getting grey hairs. I'm too opinionated, too pushy, too different from mainstream society. I feel like the odds of finding someone that could understand and accept me are about a million to one.

I'm not saying I don't want to listen to others or that my problems are more important. I'm just tired of listening to others without them returning the favor. I'm tired of feeling like nobody cares.
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36-40, F
May 11, 2012