Not Yet Best Friends... And Yet... I Love Her

I haven't known her for very long, maybe 6 months (I'm new to the country anyways)
We got off on a great start, laughing and realising we had TONS in common!
On a scale of 1-10 in hotness, I was a lingering 4 while she was a solid 9... Couldn't believe she agreed to see a movie with just me.
We knew it was just as friends, but others teased me about it being something more... i wish.
We have so much common, some of the wierdest and coolest things, and yet we're from two different worlds.
She has guys all over her and I ... yea nvm. It's just .. hard to take in.
I can't let her go though, She's always in my mind and in my heart but I don't know what to do.
I don't know if she'll like me back the same way and I doubt she would, but I can't handle being rejected.
I'm absolutely lost, sleepless nights haunt me, painful realizations and painful memories about learning about my obstacles are making my life miserable and I need help.
I feel like.. I've imprinted on her (like in Eclipse with Jacob.. idk) life with her seems so much more... wonderful and bright but without her seems hopeless and painful...
Johnnynitro1 Johnnynitro1
18-21, M
Jul 10, 2010