Unequal Love

Before we started dating, my boyfriend fell in love with me & I just had a crush on him.  I didn't even think I was capable of really having feelings towards someone because I never really have before beyond very minimal, gone-in-a-flash crushes.  Very quickly, & I mean very quickly, I fell in love with him too.  I know, I just know, that I have gone beyond him & that now it is my turn to be the one who loves the other more.  I don't know how he did it because it is really hard.  He is literally my everything & my reason for living...because honestly, if it wasn't for him, I probably would have killed myself.  All day everyday, all I do is think about him & want to be with him.  I could be with him every second of everyday & not grow tired or bored of him.  Everything I do is planned around when I can or can't be with him.  I would give up anything, anyone, everything, & everyone for him.  I know he wouldn't do the same & frankly, I would never ask him to or even really want him to if he doesn't already feel it.  So, what I want, is for him to want to...but I honestly believe that will never happen.  & I know that someday we will break up & I've accepted that...but for now, I am just so glad to be with him & I want to be able to enjoy his company, his touch, his smile, his embrace, & his everything for as long as I am lucky enough to be with him...because holy **** do I love this man.