I Used To Say This

There has been many times in my younger life in which I have said "I Wish Someone Would Kill Me Now". There have been times, when I have been alone, where I would almost be begging to be free of the emotinal pain I felt then.

But I am past that now. I did a lot of growing up and a lot of soul searching, on who I was and who I wanted to be. I moved on from there, from the dark place I would have ended up if I continued down the path I was on.

I think back now and think, 'what the hell was I thinking?' Life is the most amazing and precious gift, and it shouldn't be thrown away. I have been through some pretty horrific times (at least for myself, I wouldn't want or try to compare to anyone else), but I have lived through it and come out stronger then I thought possible. Life really is a gift, never give up on it, and more importantly never give up on yourself.
TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
26-30, M
2 Responses Feb 27, 2012

Thanks for the comment rageangel, and I am sorry to hear things are going rough for you. <br />
In answer to your question, honestly I don't think there was anything special, I think I just came to realise that it is MY life and I am the one in control of it. I did do some serious soul searching, I realised what I wanted in life and who I really wanted to be. Once I realised that I really did just decide I didn't want to live how I was so I changed it. Learn from experience, and don't despair when you make a mistake. We are all human, we all fall from time to time, we need to learn to dust ourselves off and keep going.<br />
I think life is only as easy as you want it to be, and that it can be as simple or as hard as you make it.

I am still lost in my journey. Care to share what made you see light in your life? It may inspire me. Thanks