Diary Of The Suicidal Child "part 2"

January 23, 2012

Nothing much has been going on lately. Just playing with some Christmas presents and having the stress of school!

February 3, 2012

My life is like a maze. I never really know where I'm going. I'll take a turn, and I don't know where I'll end up. I'm not like most people. They know right from wrong. But most people didn't have a horrible childhood either. They actually had a mom who was there 24/7. Mine was always gone, I never saw her. Sometimes it'd be months. Also, most people had fathers who cared. Not alcoholic father's who beat them. No four year old I know had to call the cops because their daddy almost killed your older sister. No nine year child had to go through a pregnancy and drug addiction. No twelve year old should have to lie about everyone about having an abortion, when in reality, your cousin has custody. And here I am, three years sober, I have a shot of heroin. I can't go through this. It's all too much. I must go. I have just enough H to kill me. If you ever find this, don't blame yourself. No one is to blame, I am. I'm sorry... I'll see you all on the other side.. Soon... I promise... Don't miss me..

February 27, 2012

Well, my plan didn't go very well. Next time, I'll be sure to lock my door. Spent most of this month in rehab. I don't understand people. I swear. Like, why do they not care when they think I'm fine, but then all of a sudden, they care. You just can't do that.. But I started talking to this really cute guy, his name is Dylan. He's 16. I really like him, it's like he understands me. He's so funny too! Which is a bonus! I've never seen him in person, only through Facebook. He's my best friends friend. So she gave me his number. I'd say we're best friends now. He's so sweet too! We started talking on the phone, every night. We're at least on the phone with each other for at least five hours a night. I don't care if I don't get sleep, he's cute, and sweet. Who knows? Maybe He'll ask me out soon! I hope so! Well, speaking of him, he's calling now!!!!!!! OMG. I'll write later and explain every detail! (:
RecoveringAddict RecoveringAddict
13-15, F
Dec 11, 2012