Lost Song

I have been suicidal for many years. I have had a couple serious attempts but obviously failed.
I'd love to go out like Romeo and Juliet.
I have been putting off my "exit" for a few weeks now. Don't understand why. I have the method I will use all ready.
I just want some one with me.
tikki75 tikki75
36-40, M
2 Responses Jan 8, 2013

It's almost like running away from loneliness even in death.
I just want courage. Someone, people are so unreliable.
If you've obviously failed. Can I learn from your mistakes?

I had made a pact with someone just as lost as me, and yet we both live. Maybe our "exits" are being pushed aside by our minds for the fact that Death is absolute but hurt dies.