Some point in Life you have to grow up. So I've heard. I thought practically Raising Shi and Aj and Taking care of my Grandfather was Grown up. But That's Not All of it. I also heard that You won't truly understand what motherhood is until you become a mother. That's not totally True either.
Shi Moved with my dad ( that's when I began to realize Things where Different.). Then in June I packed up and Moved. I stayed with my sister For two months. Then I met Mike and two months of being with him. I decided to move with him. Decissions Made And Change Happend quickly. I wish Things Could of been different. It seems We go our whole lives wanting something more.
I always Been Independent Wanted things my way. Until the day I realized It couldn't always Be My way. The house I Gave up. Was the house I lived in Since I moved to Florida. When I was six years old. The House my grandmother Designed From the ground up.The house she gave to me to Become a Family in.
Gone it's all gone. Now I Live my Life with Mike. Seeing my Grandfather, Aj, And shi, Every Few Weeks. My Life Revolves around Mike. My dreams aren't the same as they use to be. Sometimes I wish things where different Like I had the house back, The Kids Back With me And grandpa with me. I got use to taking care of Them constantly My Life was based on taking care of them.
I have a life I am satisfied For the most part. I wish things where different Though.. But this is the Freedom and Independence I always wanted..