Whats So Wrong With Me

NEW to this but here is a start!

 

SO depressed today...

Took

  • 600 motrin
  • 300 motrin
  • allergy med.
  • stomcah med

It really helped me sleep, my boyfriend who i was with for only a week but none for much longer broke up with me, it was over a girl! that he constantly lied to me about! whats so wrong with me? i wish i could just find someone to understand me! every man or boy i ever known has betrayed me! here i am alone again... i realized i am happy alone but i cant stand being alone i feel so empty, but in a relationship i feel like they are just using me or going to betray me.. i need help! i havent cut in so long && i wanted to so bad today..i told myself " im sick of being strong" i needed to! but couldnt find a razor! i hate being judged i just want to be loved so abd, i wan to be happy.. god please let me be happy! my boyfriend hurt me just like everyone else has!! && he doesnt even understand what he just did to me!! please someone tell me whats so wrong!!!

* never been diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder but im sure i have it, well im not really sure help me out

SoEmPtY SoEmPtY
18-21, F
3 Responses May 21, 2007

i know exactly how depressed you feel. but sometimes you have to look around you and see all the people your affecting by doing all these things. you need to stay strong. and just because im only another person you dont know, i am positive people care about you. just wait for the right person. their going to come. oh, and your ex doesnt deserve you.<br />
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you will be loved<br />
A

Beginin at the beginning:<br />
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You were created to live, to enjoy life, to build and work toward your future and to create love and receive love. <br />
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Stay in touch with this and go distract yourself with something, maybe a book, or exercise. <br />
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Keep your body whole so that it can help you reach your goal of being loved. <br />
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Please, <br />
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R

STAY STRONG YOU ARE YOUNG AND THERE ARE ALOT OF FISH IN THE SEA ASI KNOW U HAVE HEARD. DON NOT PLEASE DO NOT PICK UP THE RAZPR FOR NAYTHING YOU SOUND LIKE YOUR DOING GOOD. DONT RELAPSE PLEASE, THINGS WILL GET BETTER BUT U HAVE TO MAKE IT HAPPEN OK PEACE TO YOU WHIITETIIGER