Just When I Was Used To Being Alone

I slept alone for a long long time. Then I met CBD. The first few months we dated we were both reluctant to spend the night together. It happened occasionally, and it was basically two people stuck in the same bed because we were too tired to drive. It was always at his place and I slept poorly, knowing he really didn't want me there. If we touched during the night, he deliberately moved away and we ended up hugging opposite sides of the bed. Something happened at around the three month mark, not sure what, and he asked me if I was spending the night with him. I asked him if he wanted me to and he said OF COURSE. That was the first time we engaged in a sleepover willingly, and after months of hugging opposite ends of the bed he held me close as we fell asleep. When I repositioned myself in the middle of the night he pulled me close again.

Sleeping with CBD has become comfortable. I sleep best now when I am with him, even though I only see him 1-2 times a week. His breath against me, his warm body, his smell, even using his big strong arm as a pillow....all things I love.

He is out of town this weekend and I miss him. I miss him while I'm in my bed. I miss being in his bed. I miss his touch, his kiss, and the sense of security I have when we're together.
sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
46-50, F
1 Response Dec 31, 2011

This is the reason that it annoys me that sleeping together is a euphemism for sex.